Arguments are a show of LOVE <3

2007-02-21T21:50:00.000-08:00

Sry for e LLLOOONNNGGGGGG absence....com spoil + dumb google upgrade thingy...keep kena error -.- kns...

kk enuf crappin....now....dis blog...is....in use again =)

*HOORAY~ PARTY! PARTY! PARTY!*
(sry...dis is jus wat lack of slp does to u...makes u go siao...so kiddies...dun follow me im a bad example of a bf)

2007-01-29T03:51:00.000-08:00

Today's been a NICE day (: Miss cheong trained us..(cheong?chong?) hahaha she's super super nice man!haha..Cant wait for the day she's gonna bring us to the gy, (: i wanna gain MUSCLES! YAYIE :D hahaha (: oh man i realli gotta train my lay ups (: Gonna work super super hard and then be GOOD :D Oh man watchin the seven o clock show..The guy's so dedicated to basketball..i guess all of us wld be like that too if we got disabled..:( its super super sad..If i cldnt play basketball anymore,i'd die i guess..no more life in me..Poor guy..=/

ILOVEYOUPIGGY :D
Oh and ah jie and anna and all the BASKETBALLERS too :D

ps daddy take care! :D

2007-01-10T11:09:00.000-08:00

"OINK"

this "oink" alone means more then a thousand words. so....go think about what it means =)
(i'm sure u noe wat i mean =D)

2007-01-05T04:34:00.000-08:00

Today's training was FUN FUN FUN! :D Haha..Tiring but fun..There were loads of injuries :( But we made it through in the end :D Alright i know i havent blogged in like AGES.But there's loads to do..Using the only spare time now..OM's compulsory this year..And NYAA too..So yeah *SIGHS But i can do it! :D Oh yea this morning was good too..The seniors kinda trained us this morning..FUN :D

I dont know..Its so weird..Everything's so weird now..What's wrong with family?

2006-12-31T00:13:00.000-08:00

I dont wanna break your heart,dont wanna hurt you..I know how it feels to find yourself lost in life,your sole mission gone forever..I cant be this selfish just because..But it seems too good to miss..I tried to get the feelings back..I really did..But the sparks last december..Cant feel them anymore..Though i do love you..But..I gotta choose..Everyday it just gets harder..Ah jie tld me to tell you the situation..But how can i?Without you wanting to let me go?Don't let me go..Not just yet..I gotta choose..This is my battle..I cant be selfish..Yet i cant let it go just like that..It been one year..We've gone through one year..And I love you..

Im just confused..My emotions are all mixed up..I keep connecting the wrong people in my head..I wish everyone'd give me a while to think things out..Why cant all the words stop echoin in my head?Do i follow my heart?Or my head?What is my heart saying?I dont know how i feel anymore..Just dont let go..I need your support..

2006-12-28T03:02:00.000-08:00

Should i stay,or should i go?

2006-12-26T01:49:00.000-08:00

Okay today's boxing day..BUT I GOT NO PRESENTS TO OPEN! :( Opened all my presents last night..Can you believe it,i only got 4 presents..HAHA. Ah well its okay..Giving is better than recievin :D Well just came back from the gym..Did practicaly nothing there except continue my conversations with the people i was talkin to at home..Yawns..If i wasnt so bored,i wldnt have gone dwn..Man i AM bored..Wish tomorrow wld come quickly..CANT WAIT FOR THE 6P GATHERING :D Ohman i hope it doesnt rain tmr..Haha..

HAPPY BOSING DAY EVERYONE :D

2006-12-23T19:16:00.000-08:00

There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

It's a long road When you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand For you to hold You can find love If you search within yourself And the emptiness you felt Will disappear And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone Tear them away Hold on There will be tomorrow In time You'll find the way And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

2006-12-23T18:44:00.000-08:00

Last night was fuckin dramatic..Now all my emotions're haywire..Dont know who's wrong,who's right..Don't know who to trust..Joel,i dont know who YOU'LL believe..I had a realli rough night..Wished ah jie was there..I called and called her..Think she's pissed at me..Everything's going bad but still,ah jie wont be angry for long..She'll never be pissed at me :) That's what true friends are..

I just want to clarify,firstly,yes you only tld samantha the truth..But hadnt you agred not to spread it and not tell anyone who wld tell my mum and endanger me?Secondly,tho i dont know who started the topic,smth was mentioned or else how wld samantha know what to tell aunty wendy?Thirdly,after you got me into this deep shit,i expected you to obviously lie for me and cover up for me cause YOU GOT ME INTO THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE when you already agreed not to spread it.But instead of doing that,you all hauled your whole family up,showed them the message i sent you about helpin me,and told my whole family i was with joel..Yes you got scolded by aunty wendy and all,but WHY IN THE FIRST PLACE DID YOU ALL TELL SAMANTHA THE TRUTH?You got me into this shit then tld me "its not our duty,we dont have to be here,you just want me to save your ass" WELL DUH?CAUSE YOU GOT ME INTO IT IN THE FIST PLACE SO IT IS YOUR DUTY TO GET ME OUT?We already agreed not to spread it.I dont fuckin know who to trust anymore.

2006-12-18T02:30:00.000-08:00

YAYE :D I'm back in singapore :D Came back day before ytd..Which was sat i guess..Haha..But going away to phuket tonight..I mean tmr morn..But i gotta go reallllli early in the morning so oh well..Its still "tonight" to me :D Well i was supposed to meet joel half an hour ago :( But i guess he's sleepin..Oh well its okay :) He needs his sleep :) Listenin to Jesse MCcartney's "Because you live" That song's real nice :D Haha..Oh now its "Beautiful Soul" I dont wan another pretty face i dont want anyone to hold lalala~ :D

2006-12-08T19:10:00.000-08:00

Oh yeeeeahh gonna go to shanghai with auncle sam and da others..Yayyee :D Its gonna be FUN :D Then back to singapore for a stopever and off to Phuket for another holiday :D OH YEEEAAHH! :D
Cant wait to be in shanghai..But im gonna miss so many trainings n i bet my stamina's gonna drop drop drop..Sigh..But ah wells..Cant have everything..Oh and im gonna miss everyone here too..:( All da bballers especially ze,ah jie,anna....etc..and darl..Oh and of course you too weisheng kore :P Haha cant believe yur goin to aussie da exact day i come back frm phuket :( Haha but nvm its okay :D Lalala going to da airport soon..Yawns..Lalalalala~ Listening to "Thank You" by Simple Plan..
"i wonder why it always has to hurt" lalalalalala~ Haha..Alright piggy if yur readin this blog,happy one year in advance!I'll give you yur prezzie when i return..I kinda forgot to bring it up juz now :( But i'll pass it to you when i get back :D LOVE YOU!

2006-12-08T04:06:00.000-08:00

Okay okay second post till i get to da airport..Oh man im so tired of waitin for my parents to come home and FETCH ME TO DA AIRPORT..Whoopie :D oh and regina pursuaded me to let her do my nails..No easy feat so congratulations Regina..Haha..BUT BUT BUT it turned out quite bad :( so i tried to wash them off but as expected,they wldnt come off..Only alcohol does the trick.So im still horrorstricken at my nails..=/ And i have to type with one finger only..:( Sucks..Haha..Hmm darl i was blog hoppin and i saw josh's blog and it had this survey thingy..Go read its quite amusing..Haha..Oh and anna's blog aint in use anymore :( cause she forgot her password or smth..Yawns..IM GONNA PLAY GAMES ON DA FLIGHT YAYE :D heehee..Will be thinkin of our last kiss and hug all thru da 8 days darl..Love you..:)

Oh and again,happy early 1 year :D
*hugs

2006-12-05T20:15:00.000-08:00

"Every second chance begins with a first step" Step Up
What i am now has nothing to do with you..It's who i was molded into..The coldness..Its just a form of strength..The wall..Its my defence..For i've learnt..No one can be burdened with all my problems alone..It's only me,who can comfort myself..It's only me,who can solve my problems..It's only me,who cares about me..So long i've tried to depend on people..They either crumble,or don't give a damn..Now its time for me to be my own again..To be myself..When im angry,to console myself..When im hurtin,to comfort myself..When im happy,to rejoice myself..

But still,there's a small part of me wishin you would change..Till then,till the time i'm sure i can share my sorrows,my hurt,my anger,and my happiness with you,and you would care,i only have myself..

2006-12-05T09:25:00.000-08:00

dear...
somehow, i just feel we're like....drifting apart. i mean, i dont feel as close to you as i did before all this. i stil love you as much tho, dont get me wrong. but its like there is this huge glass wall seperating us. im tryin to break it... but its like...things are so different now...you've grown colder in a way. you've grown more independent and i know you're hurting inside...
and i just dont know what to do to make things right again... its like, a part of me has been killed, and now im bleeding... trying to get things right on my own. cos only i can right, cos i made this mess in the first place...

anyway cheryl... get well soon...i know its kinda serious but you'll get over it. you'll get better and back to normal. you're not alone k...you have people who care for you...

i know i cant be the perfect guy you want... i know i've disappointed you time and time again... i'm trying to get things right.... you might think im weak, hat im running away from my problems.... but its my way of doing things.... to retreat first, think of a solution to solve the problem, then go back and face it.

sry cheryl....

*you may hate me... you may never want to see me ever gain... you may even kill me... but my love for you will never ever die... i love you...always & forever

2006-12-05T01:48:00.000-08:00

"You just sweet talk and expect everything to happen in a snap" That's what daphne typed in her display name..And i think its realli true..People do that..Peple who cant face their problems..The thing is,can you?You tld me you wld..Do u have the strength to keep your decision?

2006-12-04T19:11:00.000-08:00

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whattempermentareyouquiz/">What Temperment Are You?

2006-12-03T18:14:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOSH I DUN BELIEVE I'M MISSIN TRAINING! ESPECIALLY THE TRAININ WHERE DA SENIORS WLD TRAIN US! ONE OF THE MOST IMPT TRAININGS! PLUS THEIR GONNA TEACH US THE MATCH THINGY! OMYGOSH!! ARGH!!!!

*RAMS MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL

2006-11-30T11:01:00.000-08:00

=) darl...i love u...i want u to grow so i'll be there 4 u from now on...but i wont step in and help u....only if u really really need help then i will...other then dat...i'll always be behind watching out for ya... i noe ive been kinda a not so gd....extremely horrid....bf before....=/ but i stil love u jus e same if not more =D nite nite ^^

2006-11-29T05:14:00.000-08:00

Haha thanks loads ah jie,KORe..I feel so much better now..Thanks for always being there for me when i needed u guys..BUT..KORe yur so corny!Talkin bout children!Haha..I'm still with joel..Haha..
It's great to know that u're loved by more than one person in the world..That u can trust so many other people when that one person kinda lets you down..Haha..I love you jie!N you too WS! I aint sad anymore :) Though da world's complicated n everything seems to b against me at times,i noe that there'll always b a refuge for me..God,jie..All of them :)
I LOVE YOU GUYS :D

2006-11-24T04:50:00.000-08:00

Alright i shall change my font colour..Da other blue doesn realli go with my blog =/ Heehee :D Eww da wound on my hand's cold..So weird..Like there's cold pus or smth..N it hurts so much =/ Mayb i shldnt have scratched myself =/But its such a habit..Sigh..Oh n my toe hurts too =/ *grumps..Feel so grumpy today..Aww darling da last post was sweet..Haha..

2006-11-23T06:17:00.000-08:00

well.....now that i hav more time 4 u ^^..... thx darl for everythin =)
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2006-11-22T18:45:00.000-08:00

Argh my tution teacher's LATE.So bet da lesson's gonna drag n drag n drag..Sigh..And after tution,only a few hours break before MATH tution..*faints..Why do i have tution in da hols >.< slideshow ="/">

2006-11-21T23:24:00.000-08:00

Yaye i finally changed da blogskin..:D Heehee..Oh n da last post wasnt realli nice was it >.<>.<>

2006-11-21T20:44:00.000-08:00
Yayie :D I finally finished da slideshow picture thing..And im gonna post it here :D Thanks to ah jie for updattin her profile with it so i cld do it too! :P

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2006-11-20T17:45:00.000-08:00
Yaye :D I woke up early today :D Its now one hour before chinese tution..Hope i finished my work..=/ Think i did..Oh well..Oh yea i forgot to post wad happened on da bus ytd..Haha..
Well me,nad,ying n ah jie wwere headin to ah jie's house..And we were listenin to music n crappin n all tat shit..And suddenly ah jie n me spotted this weird bug thing crawlin up Nadhira's seat..We were like "oh man! tissue tissue!" And we were turnin left,turnin right hysterically and then,we banged our heads together -.-" And instead of helpin,ying juz looked at da us with this "huh?wad da hell?" expression on her face..No let me correct that..Ying looked at us with a "huh" expression on her face..Nadhira,DA ONE WE WERE TRYIN TO SAVE frm da bug,looked at us with a "wad da hell" expression on her face and said "its an ant" SO MEAN >.< *POOF And to think ah jie n me banged our heads to help her >.< *POOF!So much for doing a good deed..Oh n its soooo pissin..I cant seem to sign in to blogger with da basketballers account..I think anna has to log in to her google acc before i can sign in..Tat means i have to wait till da 24th till i can start on da blog!Oh man tat sucks..Oh n yea,Christmas's comin soon..I dun think i've saved up enough to buy everyone smth >.<
I'm badly in need of money now!

2006-11-20T06:05:00.000-08:00
I opened my soul
Showed you my deepest emotions
Revealed all my secrets
Bared my naked heart to you

Its scars and holes you seemed to understand
Bandages,kisses,you provided all
Soothin me whenever i was down
Werent you the perfect one?

U say i aint independent
Well mayb u shld think twice
Love's about findin your other self
What if half of you broke away?

Wouldnt you be desperately searching for it
To try to make yourself whole again?
Its the same for me
I'm searaching for my other half
The one that broke away from me
My other half,well thats
You

2006-11-19T06:49:00.000-08:00
Everything's goin wrong now!!
Da bballers blog,our conversation!
ARGH I JUZ WANNA LET IT ALL OUT!
BUT I CANT!
ARGH LEMME FEEL DA BLOODY PAIN!

2006-11-19T04:26:00.000-08:00
Oh man CHELSEA CHIA!Why'd u have to do put a password on yur blog for?!Now im stuck on tat page!I need to find a link frm yur blog!-.-" Now im stuck..
Piggy n me havent been communicatin much..I dun think he cares if we dun..He didnt seem to bother when i asked him wad we could do..He juz went like "i dunno" Shows he doesn care?I dunno..

"Baby baby where're you?
And all i hear in reply
Are da echoes of my cries
Resoundin round da room"

There..I've written my feelings into a verse..:D Now i feel better..:)

2006-11-18T07:00:00.000-08:00
Why does it always seem like there's no one to turn to?When things go smoothly,"baam!" things becomes realli diff to overcome n i become a "beast"..A confused blur of emotions..
Well juz got back frm westmall..Think im gonna get a new phone soon..But wat can material happiness compare to happiness of da heart?I noe its time i grew up,time i understood tat life aint the perfect fairytale everyone wants it to be..But times of joy,times of pain..It all affects me so badly..More than anyone else..Why?Mayb sensitivity aint very good sometimes..Mayb havin da ability to feel more deeply aint good..That night,i was all alone n afraid..N it was only then i realised..I'm a big gal..Gotta stand up for myself..No one else will..No one in this world's strong enough to hold all my troubles..Its not right to ask so much of everyone..Its time to grow..

Its time for me to grow....

2006-11-17T05:16:00.000-08:00
OMG Jerry learns takwando!Dunno if tats da correct spellin but OH WELL..I juz did 12 math ques in da assesment book :D Yaye :D Oh n i went to da gym today..Joel almost died "runnin"..Haha..I cant wait to go out tmr..Bet we're gonna take neos again =/ I hate takin pics of myself..Feels so weird..I'm so NOT photogenic..Oh n i forgot to write..I ate burger king for da first time today :D N it was GOOD. Da hershey's thing was good too :D Haha..Man i think im gettin hungry again..

*stomach grumbles

2006-11-16T03:51:00.000-08:00
What happened juz now?Dammit i muz have been outta my mind goin all emotional like tat..Wasnt i taught not to show tears?Wasnt i influenced to be strong?Mayb this's all in da package of love..Never used to shed as many tears..But its all worthwhile..

2006-11-15T04:45:00.000-08:00
Oh man da covenent was pretty weird..But da guys were quite good lookin :D Actually i think ah jie n me were concentratin on da guys more than da show :P I dunno..I was..Haha..But da show was quite short =X Ppl say its quite good..Dun realli think so..JOSH YUR AN OXYMORON :D Haha..OH MY GOSH! DA MEEPOK UNCLE PASSED AWAY!He died of a heart attack! OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!He's been in da sch for soooooo long..AND OMGOSH JOY LEE"S COUSIN"S ABRAHAM LEE! SO WEIRD! Either its true or his crappin..
Fuck la..Stupid toad..Callin me an asshole..Sorry i aint stinky enough to b one..Yur da mental one..YUR MENTAL MAN!

2006-11-11T22:10:00.000-08:00
Juz took some of Mcfly lyrics n posted them..
This one's from "I'll Be Ok"

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
It's been so long now
You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have
Better things to do.
When your down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When your down and lostAlong the way
Oh, just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK

2006-11-11T05:41:00.000-08:00
Can't figure why i'm going thru all this shit emotions

2006-11-10T21:59:00.000-08:00
Hurts hurts hurts like SHIT!Pain pain go away..Never ever come again..Sigh..Now chattin to chels n playin reversi with WS..His winnin! :( Haha..Chels's n him makin me feel tons better..Tho his way of makin me feel better's makin me feel worse too -.- So yea..I'd rather chels..Sigh..

2006-11-10T21:10:00.000-08:00
Colin Mortensen
"Boyfriend- or Girlfriend-Lechers

" In high school,i had friends who hit on my girlfriend,which for girls and guys alike is posibly the worst things that can happen to you.What i still fail to understand is why somebody-your friend-would choose to be interested in your girlfriend or boyfriend when there are millions of peoples to choose from.Why would anyone diliberately set out to betray a friend when the cost is so high to everyone?It could be because these "girlfriend-or boyfriend-lechers" have extremely low self exteem.These people feel so inferior to their friends that they will do anything that they can "have what we have".The truth is,by going behind somebody's back and flirtin with that person's girlfriend or boyfriend,they are proving that they don't have what we have;they dont have respect or integrity.

2006-11-07T22:18:00.000-08:00
Its HER bdae today..Dunno wat to get her..Ytd when i showed regina da tiny sponge card,she scolded me like i expected her to..So i gotta get her a gift today..Flowers?Mayb..Simplest thing to get..She almost made me wear a skirt =/ oh man..Haha..I juz realised smth..My blog posts's ten times more depressin than any other normal 13 year old blog posts =/ Mayb i shld lighten up abit more..Whee..Heehee..Well happy memories are supposed to b in da HEART..Not in da comp :P Alright i shall try to b less depressin..I"M GOING OUT FOR DINNER YAYE :D Neways think wat chels said ytd was right but oh well,like she says,its no use lecturin me coz i wun listen :P I'm as stubborn as a mule..:D Well i'm gonna listen to my heart..Tat's all..This mornin was pretty borin..Mayb shld have done abit of math or smth..I got tons of work piled up! =/ =/ =/ =/ great -.-

2006-11-07T04:08:00.000-08:00
Can't help replayin da scene in my head..Me puttin abit of water onto his neck to try n wake him up..And him pushing me away roughly n cursin "fuck!" angrily Tat was scary..I didnt noe he cld ever b so.....rough with me..Yea i had heard him shout n all before..But never had he ever..I dunno..I'm scared..Wld he ever b like tat again?I dunno i dunno..Its like he became smth he wasnt..Like he became another person..It was so scary..One min i was tryin to wake him up happily,next he juz turned into smth else n i juz wanted to run..I dunno if it'd ever happen again..I juz cldnt help wantin to run away..But he tld me to lock da door n stay..Then he became himself again..But i dunno..I was scared outta my wits..Mayb if it were smeone else,it wldnt b so bad..But he was da one who'd never get angry at me..N suddenly he juz pushed me away roughly n cursed angrily..Guess i was shocked n scared at da same time..I had never felt like tat only mayb in june..But i thought never again wld he b like tat..But he was realli scary..Oh man i juz wanted to run n run n run or juz hide n cry..Damn i was almost whimperin in his shirt when he hugged me..Argh damn im juz so weak..Why'm i so sensitive!WHY?!

2006-11-07T01:10:00.000-08:00
Damn his sleepin again..Wanted to go see him so bad..Ah wats wrong with me?!These few days feelin like shit..Its all weak weak weak..Dammit..Nothin's calmin me down..Argh..Got so many things to do n how'm i gonna do my card?I dun noe wat to do for her..Mayb i'll go down n run like ytd..Help me forget everythin..Juz run n run n run..Why is it tat everytime things're goin smoothly,smth seems to slip into my mind makin me feel sooo UGH.If only i werent so sensitive..Oh man give me a break someone..

2006-11-06T21:10:00.000-08:00
Yayie..Piggy's back..Oh man..Feelin cold all over..Hope im not gettin sick..Well i'll b goin down to run later so shld get warm by then..I cant get sick..Not with da trainings goin on..Chinese teacher dragged da lesson sooo long i almost fainted >.<

2006-11-06T01:00:00.000-08:00
All right..No more inflictin pain on myself..Stupid thing to do actually..Oh well..Guess i'll blog from now on..Past few days's been eatin quite a bit..THERE SEEMS TO BE SO MUCH GOOD FOOD IN DA HOLS :D Well hope i ran off da chicken burger n fries i ate for lunch :D Juz ran for ten mins straight..Sighs..Was actually supposed to go to piggy's house..But think he fell asleep..Sigh..I'm a little upset but oh well..Guess he needs his sleep..
Alright i shall watch a video to get my mind off things..I'm gonna blog everyday frm now on :D

2006-11-01T16:48:00.000-08:00
Aww man..ITs rainin again..Was plannin to go play bball but it like everytime i leave da house,da rain starts to fall..Waddahell..Well kinda bored here..At least i have a comp to use..Wish ah jie was awake tho..Can crap n crap to her all day..Here everyone's either sleepin or playin da comp =/ AH DAMMIT I WANNA GO PLAY BBALL..I had this marvellous trainin session planned out for myself..100 layups,freethrows n abc line thingy..But da stuuuuuuupid rain..Sigh..Had to spoil my plans..Sigh..

2006-10-30T19:33:00.000-08:00
Simple Plan Crazy
Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere i look i see
Young girls dying to be on tv
Won't stop till they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photo shop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn’t make sense to me
I guess things aren’t how they used to be
There’s no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it’s World War 3
No one cares, no one’s there
I guess we’re all just too damn busy
And money’s our first priority
It doesn’t make sense to me
Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV’s
When kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

2006-10-25T21:10:00.000-07:00
I'm 13 today :D I feel GOOD..lalalalalalala~ heehee..Today was soooo exciting..Anna,Kt,Ze,Trish,Yao n Lisa came over to kinda celebrate my birthday..But it rained :( So we couldnt have it outside..We had to sit on da wooden tables while da rain fell around us..N we decided we didnt want acid rain fallin on our heads (Jiao Lian tld us it was acid rain :P ) so we brought da food to outside da multi..Kt,Yao n me had to stop swimmin halfway n it was freezing cold =/ Haha :D Piggy joined us for lunch n we wanted to sing n all but we were all in our own discussions..Mayb cause of da rain..:D Haha..Then they started singin da birthday song to Ze and me..N started screamin..:D Tat felt good but quite..Haha..Weird mayb..After tat anna took a bus home to take her swimming costume then all of us went swimmin..SO FUN :D But da guard came n scolded us for wearin our clothes in da water over our swimming costumes n said we made too much noise =/ Heehee

Well they've gone home now..Ya noe..To me,they're all one big family..Can only b myself when im with them..N piggy..But da bballers..They're my FAMILY n i love them :D

2006-10-24T19:56:00.000-07:00
I'd do anythin to make you happy again..

2006-10-22T03:48:00.000-07:00
I'm gettin quite confused these days..There's this fear of our love turnin into smth else..Lust?I dunno..It just scares me..Werent we like tat in june?See wat happened when i left for cruise..Mayb now if love turned into smth else again,it might happen all over..Guess i've been actin weirdly these days..Those whom i've hurt these days,sorry..It's juz these thing tat's buggin me..No matter how much reasurance i get,i still feel nervous and juz a little frightened of wat might happen..Yeah i noe..Weak eh?Wish i werent such a weakling..Its my fault i noe..I started it..N i dun want it no more..Arent u gettin fed up with me piggy?I keep startin it all over again then stoppin coz of my insecurities..I wld have gotten fed up if i were u too..Aint tat i dun trust u..Juz tat i look too deep into things sometimes..Things tat might not b as big as it seems,my imagination enlarges it till it becomes a totally diff matter altogether..N there's da prob of jealousy too..Wish i cld overcome tat..Soemtimes,i try to but i guess it still shows..When i say "everything's ok",my eyes say smth else..Mayb i shld shut my eyes when i talk to pple in future..Ha..Well i'll show myself im made of stronger stuff..I'll overcome it n even if i dun,i'll hide it so nobody'd see how i feel..Only then will it b easy for me to hide my true emotions..

2006-10-19T04:46:00.000-07:00
Da fear of letting go of the old's always preventing me frm moving forward
Nuthin i can do bout it

2006-10-13T06:25:00.000-07:00
55. A C5 for math. WAT DA HELL?
8 points. Detention. WAT DA FUCK?
Crying for two days in a row.
WAT THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?
C5.Da lowest i ever got for math.5 marks to a fail.Never expected this.Detention maybe.But a C5?Never.Counted on my "marks" to get me through.Though my marks werent tat good either. Why'm i screwin up my secondary life? Sleepin in class.Gettin booked everyday.Mayb people might say "screw sec sch life n their rules n all" But screwin them's not makin me happy.Its juz causin me punishment n makin my life unhappy.Why do i bring this upon myself?I tried to laugh everythin off.Pretend i didnt care.But deep down inside..I do care.Beneath the hard surface of da "strong" and "mischeivous" and "rule breaker" Cheryl ia a gal hu juz wants to b accepted.Yeah i AM being who i am.My character and all.But am i behavin like someone pple whld respect?Lets look at all da bball seniors.They're cool and all.Pretty.Everything.But they concentrate on their studies too.THEY MAKE THE MOST OUT OF THEIR LIFE.THEY MAKE THEIR LIFE A HAPPY ONE.The seniors who're prefects.Arent they cool too?Don't i respect them.I respect them because of who they ARE.Not how they BEHAVE.I wanna b a real Cheryl for once.A person pple wld respect n look up too.Mayb no one'd understand me or be able to help me,but im gonna help myself.Do i realli wnt to have a bad record?Do i wanna drown my carrer n da way pple think of me down the drain?Half the pple i noe dun noe da true me.Juz the rule breaker n "sleep in class" Cheryl.I'm gonna change that.I'm not gonna screw my life up anymore.This hols,a bit of relaxation.Next year when term starts,no more sleepin in class,no more bookings.I'm gonna make da best outta my life.

2006-10-12T20:24:00.000-07:00
No use regrettin it now..Da demerits're all recorded..Can't erase them no more..No use pityin yurself or bein scared..Juz face it Cheryl..Tat's wat life's bout..No use cryin or being scared..Yeah yur in big shit n all..But u deserve it..CHERYL YOU DESERVE ALL DA PUNISHMENTS AND SCOLDINGS IN DA WORLD!
But still,i'm scared..I cant disappoint any of them again..And i'm bound to get a realli harsh scoldings and yellings and all frm mum n dad..I noe wome of them werent accidents..Why cldnt i have learnt my lesson?Why muz i wait for da punishment before i realise my mistake?Why why why?!So many pple've tried to drill it into my head..But still i wldnt listen..Well this's my punishment i guess..No turnin back da time or blaming anyone..Face up to it bravely..Tat's being strong..No use worryin n cowerin down in fear..Stand up straight n face it.

Still,i'm scared..

2006-10-02T03:03:00.000-07:00
Oh man wish i'd stop being so pathetic..GET A GRIP CHERYL!

2006-09-27T01:08:00.000-07:00
This few weeks've been realli tirin..It was like there wasnt any aim in life no more..Juz lived thru da days like a robot..Doing the things i had to do systematically..All as it had been planned..The same things everyday..Eat,pray,sleep..Didnt seem to b any meanin in all tat i did..Didnt see why i ad to pray..Didnt feel anythin when i read da bible..It seemed like life was juz draggin on for da sake of draggin on..It seemed God wasnt there for me anymore..

Read a wonderful book today by Nicholas Sparks..He quoted a passage from da bible.."Love is always patient and kind.It is never jealous.Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.It does not take offence and is not resentful.Love takes not pleasure in other people sins, but delights in the truth.It is always ready to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."

God IS love. But do i love Him?I think i do..I hope i do..When i think about all He has done for me,how his changed my life..His juz too wonderful to describe..In this world,people r embarrassed to shout out that they love Him for fear of being called "unfun" or "uncool" or for fear of being looked down on..Pple r afraid of being scorned by others..But why?Why'm i afraid sometimes?God is the judge above all..Who cares whoever judges u..I guess da only thing tat we have tat we can fully hold on to n trust in is God's love..Yet we do not dare to show our love back..Doesn He feel sad?I noe i wld feel sad if a son or daughter disowns me coz i "embarrass" them..But still,He doesn punish us..He juz forgives n continues to love us..This love is unconditional and everlasting..N it took me soo long to realise..But when i finally did..I juz wanna shout it all out..Tat's why im bloggin here..To whoever's readin this.. I LOVE GOD.

2006-09-24T04:16:00.000-07:00
I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923 Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago, Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so. We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together Get married in the first town we came to and live forever But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead I found this letter, and this is what it said : "If you get there before I do Don't give up on me I'll meet you when my chores are through I don't know how long I'll be But I'm not gonna let you down Darling wait and see And between now and then Til I see you again I'll be loving you Love, Me." I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears "If you get there before I do Don't give up on me I'll meet you when my chores are through I don't know how long I'll be But I'm not gonna let you down Darling wait and see And between now and then Til I see you again I'll be loving you Love, Me."

2006-09-20T04:51:00.000-07:00
Sometimes i think pple r so hard to decipher..U juz cant judge a book by its cover..I dunno..I think i place my trust too quickly..N when tat person aint wat she or he is,i'd lose trust..N when tat person suddenly changes back,i'd place my trust again..But it realli hurts sometimes..Sometimes,a fren aint realli a fren..Sometimes da person u trust wholeheartedly actually hurts u n doesn feel a thing..Yes tears r shed,but we cant do anything..We juz have to trust,n trust again..But it gets so tirin sometimes..Why cant pple juz b wat they are?Why hide behind a cover?Are pple actually scared to show themsleves?Da only thing i can do is learn from experience i guess..How pple realli are..

How i wish i had another world i cld escape to sometimes..

2006-09-19T06:54:00.000-07:00
Okie why does it seem like im da only one postin here? *HINT HINT :P I've juz finished history! And YES!I'll work hard to make you proud Mrs Fern..Oh n ah jie,anna,charlotte too..:D I WILL make you guys proud..:P Listening to "Unwritten" now..Suddenly seem to have this strange liking for da song..Ah well..Neways i made a huge discovery today..Josh's fellow cca member lives in HUME PARK 2..He says his seen me but i've never seen him before!Jeez i think im blind in da mornings or smth..I mean even josh noticed him..>.< off ="/">.<

release your inner visions..no one else can speak da words on your lips

2006-09-19T03:45:00.000-07:00
dont wish for time to stop cause when it does you will never get anywhere

2006-09-17T03:45:00.000-07:00
My head's burstin with pain..Juz bloggin for da sake of bloggin..Can't type much..Well today i juz realised Nicole was frm my church..How i didnt see her after bein at da 11.20 session every week this year i dunno myself..But well at least i found out today..She's so cute la..And funny too..We were all so shocked coz they changed da timin frm 11.20 to 10.30 this week..N we didnt realise..Next week's gonna b at 9..

Sigh..I hate da feeling of hopelessness..Like pple've given up on u..I noe its my fault..Argh why wun i juz b a "good gal" for once..

do i make you proud?

2006-09-15T23:31:00.000-07:00
I've never been the one to raise my hand That was not me and now that's who I am Because of you, I am standing tall. My heart is full of endless gratitude You were the one, the one to guide me through Now I can see and I believe It's only just beginning.

This is what we dream about But the only question with me now Is do I make you proud, do I make you proud. Stronger than I've ever been now Never been afraid of standing out Is do I make you proud Do I make you proud.

I guess I've learned, to question is to grow That you still have faith, is all I need to know I've learned to love, myself in spite of me And I've learned to walk, the road that I believe

This is what we dream about But the only question with me now Is do I make you proud. Stronger than I've ever been now Never been afraid of standing out But do I make you proud. Everybody needs to rise up Everybody needs to be loved To be loved.

This is what we dream about But the only question with me now Is do I make you proud, do I make you proud. The only question is, do I make you proud.
Stronger than I've ever been now Never been afraid of standing out Is do I make you proud Do I make you proud.

2006-09-11T18:02:00.000-07:00
Aww man..Didnt go for training today..:( Things arent goin so good at home..Its 3 weeks till final year exams but i'm not studyin..Gettin more n more distracted everyday..And da guilt's takin over me..But i juz cant work at home..N i cant work anywhere else too..Only thing tat's helpin me relax's basketball..But this week's da last week till next year..I'm goin under..

Damn..Sometimes i juz think with all da revision i have to do..Plus all da other things i have to take care of..It gets realli frustratin..Especially when i dun get enough of revision..I only have 3 weeks!This time's crucial!If i screw this last term exams up,everything's in jepordy..Man..Its such a short time..I dun think i can make it..Esp. my chinese..Juz got my hist. paper back today..It wasnt too good..Mr Ang said 12 n above meant that we'd have grabbed da concept of doin source-based..Damn..I worked hard for tat paper..I'm juz strugglin to get thru these exams..I dun think i can do it!I need presure..I thrive under presure..Thing is,im too slack at home...I throw away al da expectations placed on me by almost everyone..Oh man wld someone jjz push me a little to study? I think i did well for this geog test coz ah jie pushed me to study n revised everythin with me..But i noe i cant depend on anyone..This feeling of helplessness but noein i can do so much juz tat im juz too slack n lazy to get started is realli pulling me under..

save me!

2006-09-07T21:37:00.000-07:00
The Lord has forgiven all my sins..:) And now i feel so happy n light again..:)
Yeah..Life is wonderful..Never thought u'd be saying tat piggy..Haha..Used to b me goin "lalala life's wonderful" n u'd b groanin in da background..:p Well HURRY N COME BACK..Yur supposed to b tellin me bout da gays or smth..Haha..Neways thanks Wesley if yur readin this..Thanks for helpin me on my relationship with the Lord..:) N yeah..Hopefully,i can turn da other guy's beliefs around..Satan is no good..Yupp..Piggy's talkin bout bathin now..Got no clue wat his talkin bout..:P
There's trainin tmr!I can barely wait..Ate quite alot today..So gotta burn it off tmr :D Leg muscles achin..And it feels GOOD..Lalalalalalala~..Heehee..Coz its supposed to mean tat im gettin more muscles..:P

TRAINING TMR! :D :D :D :D

2006-09-07T03:05:00.000-07:00
isnt life wonderful wen u think of it darl? =) everythin we went thru...makes us so much stronger =) heehee i love you* poof* my new keyboard's weird -.-

2006-08-18T07:22:00.000-07:00
Havent posted in so many days..:P Well..Went to Chel's movie marathon thing last week did i mention?8th Aug to 9th Aug..Haha..Think i posted already after tat..Haha..It was cool..We snuck out at round 2 am in da morning to buy instant noodles n food to eat coz we were starving..I mean sam n i were starving..Chels juz merely followed us there..Heehee..Well tat was last week.. This week had history n chinese tests..Think i screwed chinese as usual..History was okie..It was fun to do da paper..Haha..Its like we have to rush n rush n think realli realli fast..Kinda shiok..Haha..Last few days da piggy was working till he was practically "dead"..Haha..N there wasnt any trainin on mon n wed coz of health week..But all of us ponned kickboxing..Haha..Then went to kap on mon i think..Can't realli rmb..Wed went to westmall..Tried this weird flavour of bubbletea..It tasted like.....medicine..Haha..But da pearls were nice tho..:P Ytd wasnt tat eventful..Juz rushed home,had tution..Tat usual stuff..Piggy practically fell asleep on da fone with me!Haha..Today was cool..Da sec 4s were selling bread sticks,jelly and cake..Da bread sticks were darn delicious..Didnt try da jelly tho..Had not enuf money..I tell u i'm such a great promoter..I managed to sell so many cups of cakes la..Haha..Like i talked n talked till my mouth went dry..N da noodle uncle was so nice..He bought two n didnt ask for change..He's so kind.. Trainin today was some of da usual stuff..Drills n all..But we did this new kinda layup n movement thing..Seriously,i LOVE basketball..All my dreams now weem conected with basketball somehow..Haha..Tho i still do dream of other stuff..(U guys aint gonna noe!Its personal! :P) Juz did my eng work..Regina's kinda pissed at me coz she wants me to sleep coz i have to wake up at 5am tmr..5 AM i tell u..How early is tat?? A gal needs to sleep ya noe..Ah well..At least i think we might b goin out tmr..Neways regina's back..Gtg..Bye..

2006-08-11T07:48:00.000-07:00
Oh goodness..My eyes are so tired..N it makes me physically tireed..*gives a big yawn..Copied dwn loads of history notes frm da internet coz realised i brought my geog book back instead history.I was like..."darn IT!" Then i remembered da internet n Mr Ang's blog..Haha..Aren't i blur?I wasted 5 mins worrying..Haha..Ahh..There's a realli nice song playin on channel u..Sounds like a korean song..Coz mayb da show's a korean serial..:P Juz gave myself 5 mins off da history work..Mayb i shld juz look thru it onnee more time......Okie done..:D

Today's trainin was good..We did da defence footwork thing n some conditioning,crabwalk,crabstand n all..But ball handling n drills at first of course..Its gonna realli help our basics..:) After tat went to coro for bubble tea with nad,ying,anna n jie..Then met joel at kap..He was real tired da poor baby..Probably takin a nap now yupps..He was falling aslepp on da fone juz now..Haha..Shld have let him sleep earlier..

5 mins up..Gotta go back to work..First weekend im studying so hard..Guess Dad's words jolted me back into reality..Rest of da time i was juz fooling around..Dunno how i cld pass with good marks..Haha..Mayb of da good foundation?Ah well..Time to get to work..Jiayou cheryl!

2006-08-08T14:11:00.000-07:00
zzz...cant slp...went out for supper.... nw feel like pukin =x...every1 stil nt back -.- stil at e beach...im so lonely >.<>

2006-08-04T08:11:00.000-07:00
Whenever sang my songsOn the stage, on my ownWhenever said my wordsWishing they would be heardI saw you smiling at meWas it real or just my fantasy?You'd always be there in the cornerOf this tiny little bar

My last night here for youSame old songs, just once moreMy last night here with you?Maybe yes, maybe noI kind of liked it your wayHow you shyly placed your eyes on meDid you ever knowThat I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you areWith that look on your faceAs if you're never hurtAs if you're never downShall I be the one for youWho pinches you softly but sureIf frown is shown thenI will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to youClose as I want to beClose enough for meTo feel your heart beating fastAnd stay there as I whisperHow I love your peaceful eyes on meDid you ever knowThat I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with meYour love if you have enoughYour tears if you're holding backOr pain if that's what it isHow can I let you knowI'm more than the dress and the voiceJust reach me out thenYou will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you areWith that look on your faceAs if you're never hurtAs if you're never downShall I be the one for youWho pinches you softly but sureIf frown is shown then I will knowthat you are no dreamer

2006-08-04T04:27:00.000-07:00
Oh my goodness..Man am i tired..Guess its coz of da burger n fires n milkshakes n...Ah well i won't go into details..I mean..When 6 of da bball gals all go to eat food,i aint gonna b left out..Haha..Im soooo tiredd..

Well got loads of work to do tonight..There's gonna b lunch at Uncle Ronni's house tmr n dinner with Jie jie Kat n da rest..So yupp..Gotta do all my work by tonight..Dun see how im gonna survive..Im soooo tired i'll probably fall asleep on my books..:P

Today's trainin was okie..Da new coach taught us loads of new stuff n all..Well new for me but not for da rest..Wad can i do?I had to miss last week's trainin coz of my stooopid lungs..Sigh..Almost had an attack juz now..I forgot to take my inhaler at 10.30 so when i started shooting with anna n kt,my lungs kinda constricted n it was sooo hard to breathe..It was like my energy got sucked outta me or smth..Ah well..Guess i have to continue takin da darn inhaler..

Yawns..Gonna bathe now..Freshen up for plenty of work later..Yupp..Bye..

2006-08-01T17:24:00.000-07:00
Naughty piggy..Heehee..Yur were supposed to b sleeping >.<>

Only written a paragraph of my chinese journal..I'm like sooooo screwed man..Its like graded..N counted in da CA2..Next period's already higher chinese..=( Higher chinese sucks..Kinda sleep in every class..At least there's art today..:P Yupps..Logging unto web messenger..one more hour of comp studies left..Sooo sian..Haha..Well gotta go..Byeee..

2006-08-01T09:34:00.000-07:00
oink!~ <(. .)> <----------- Highlight Here
oink!~ (00) If You Can't See ^^

heehee~ woke up to blog heehee...
hungry nw...n yes i noe u told me to go slp dun wake up n do work...

but i feel like doin =/
purposely dun listen to u XP

heehee kk go slp puppy i'll c u tmr heehee ^^

2006-07-31T04:19:00.000-07:00
Haha today was so fun..Training ended early so i went out to eat with Kt,Anna n Zac..Wanted to clear things up with him but he kept avoiding da subject..He started sushing me n all..Well..We started playing with da fries n ketchup n it was soo funny..But he paid for da meal so yupps..We werent realli "heartache" over it..Haha..

Hmm..He looked kinda diff today..Think he did smth with his hair..Yupps..I tried to over n over to talk to him bout his frenster profile song dedication thing..But he kept avoiding da subject n anna n kt kept laughin so i juz gave up..Haha..U learnt to change da subject frm da best h. dude..Haha..After we ate,he sent us back to sch coz it was still quite early..Around 6 or so..And also anna wanted to play bball so we went back to sch..Da sec 2s had already finished trainin..We took some size 6 balls n i started fooling around n all..:P Da sec 4s were there too so they played a match with us..I was laughing so much i cldnt shoot properly..Anna n kt were like "cheryl STOP laughin!"Then i laughed even more n almost collapsed..Haha..Anna gave me a lift home so yupp here i am..Im soo sticky n wet..Wonder wat Zac wld have thought if he saw me now..He'd b like "Cheryl u smelly rag!"Haha..Well gonna go bathe now yupps..Byee

2006-07-29T08:10:00.000-07:00
dear... i guess i've realli been stiff dese mths...its jus dat...u noe hw i m... i dunno y im like dis too...but ya...but dear... i realli do love u...ppl mite say i dun mean wat i say n im all hot air n all... but dis is 1 matter im truly serious abt...n dat is i love u...i realli do... jus dat... smtimes im nt sure hw to express it to u...its like...honestly....im stil a kid -.- seriously dear... u're more mature den me...realli...but i love u n i wanna tell u...we are together for a reason...n dat reason is to hold on together in love....in a love dat noes no ends...a love dat nt even time can break... i love u cheryl. dun ever doubt my love 4 u....cos its e 1 true thing i hav in my life

2006-07-29T06:30:00.000-07:00
"I love you"..These 3 words..Simple..Delicate..Yet deep in its meaning..It used to mean:"Goodbye","I miss you","Cheer up"..But did i realli believe in u meaning your words?I dun think so..Not till today..And not till i saw it in your eyes..U dun need to prove it to me..I cld feel it..Da way u hugged me..Yupp..Why r u acting so weird now?Its making me worried..Mayb u dunno..But everytime yur this way,i get affected..I get worried..Like u said..Its not easy for a relationship to last 7 months..But it did..Darling it did..No matter how tough times were,we wtill held on..And u noe wat..There's a phrase"No matter how tough it was,we still held on till the end." Personally,i hope there aint gonna b an end for us..Yeah sure we cant look into da future n all..But..The future is in OUR hands..N also a bit of God's will but..Yeah..Its made outta OUR decisions..N i decide to stay with u forever..Will you?Well tat's up to u..I'm prepared to b committed to this..I dun go into relationships juz for da fun of it..There's gotta b a reason..N da reason was clear to me after wat happened last month..I love you..No..These 3 words dun juz mean"i wanna make u feel better" or "please dun act this way baby"..It means tat i accepted u for who U are..I hope you understand now darl..But realli..If u dun feel the same way..I wanna noe k..There's nothin left to hide..We've been together for so long now..Clear my doubts..Tell me..Do u feel da same way i feel for you?

Wadeva yur answer is..I wanna noe the truth..But darl i juz wanna tell you..I love you..

2006-07-27T05:57:00.000-07:00
Hmm..Today was fun enough..Lotsa neoprints taking with Chels,Siran n me..Then da piggy joined us for da movie..Yupp..Well Lady in da Water was good. Well muz haved like it too..She actually cried at da sad part..Haha..I was a lil distracted explainin da story to da piggy as da piggy was late so i didnt realli see tat part properly..Haha..Well in all,da outing to day was kinda fun except for da fact that they didnt let me eat cold or oily or fried stuff..It spoilt da outing abit for me..

Hmm i was thinkin..Well since da day i met piggy and after all we've been thru..It enuf to write a drama seiral..Haha..Hmm my feelings have progressed from da first month like to now,true love..Yeah..Well..Its become true love without selfishness or possesiveness n i've learnt to give n take..So well..I juz wanna tell u,u've influenced my life in many ways,helped me thru alot,given me comfort..Well mayb u dun love me as much as i love u..Butt well i'll juz put all my hopes n trust into this but i noe that at least u DO love me..Its da confidence u put in me tat u love me..Mm so i juz wanna u to noe..I believe in da confidence u give me anddI LOVE YOU!

2006-07-26T12:14:00.000-07:00
dat 'dun click here' button is realli realli irritatin -.- ........
la la la la la la la la~~~~
not gonna slp heehee...
gonna do work...
heehee jus came back frm eatin prata...heehee
its 3.10am nw heehee...
i'll c u in e mornin ltr dear heehee
haha
k i'll stop crappin =/

2006-07-26T01:39:00.000-07:00
My post ytd didnt get saved =( So sucky..Tat post was for ah jie,anna and chels..Juz wanted to thank them for stickin by me all the time and ah jie also for supportin me in da june hols..Yupps..Never expected a thing like tat to happen but it has made everythin stronger so i'm thankful for it..Piggy and me're more understandin now(....mayb :D) and well..I've learnt to appreciate my frens more..Juz feel like giving u all a huggggiee...*hugs tightlyyy..There..Now all of u noe i aprreciate u..-grins

Live eveyday like yur last..Do things u wld never do..Trash yur embarrasment,hesitation and fear aside..Say things u feel..Jeez u may never have another tmr..So now i say to all who've been supportin me and loving me..I love you too!And i hope tat one day in YUR time of need,i'll b able to help u..Yupps..

Well feelin rather down now..Da rest're at trainin..N jiao lian's personally trainin them which is smth realli realli rare n im missin the training..Sighs..I've already missed the trainin where they went to the gym to tone their muscles..N im missin today's..Sighs..Well guess i'll blog later then..

2006-07-25T07:17:00.000-07:00
dear...get well soon k...
me love u puppy heehee ^^

2006-07-23T07:50:00.000-07:00
=) sry cant talk to ya dear... sigh....
i hav to learn proper time management... mine nw's crap... balancin u...work n maple =/
u noe...everytime u go 'its ok, u go play i'll tok to u tmr...' i jus feel real bad... like im throwin u aside =(
ya....well...all in all...i wan our relationship to go to e pt dat even tho we may nt contact each other for a long time....but we noe we stil love each other =)

*love u dear... kk me go do work le =) c u tmr k

2006-07-22T04:01:00.000-07:00
History history history..Yawns..Had to study for da test on mon..Inference and all tat stuff..But somehow today's less stressin than all the other sats..Mayb its coz i didnt try to rush and memorize everything at one go..Guess i kinda stuck to my own pace this time..Well i can remember things better this way..But it takes a longer time and time's not smth i wanna waste studying..Smtimes i feel i'm wastin all my time doing things tat are useless..I'm guilty of losing touch with once precious friends,teachers,and people i once loved just because of the things i do to waste my time..My schedule seems so screwed somehow..I'm somehow always on the comp nowadays..The time i used to put aside for reading..Exercising..Dreaming..Now taken over by the addiction of being in front of the computer..Sighs..My parents r juz too busy to care i guess..And coz their busy,they become screwed and too protective and stressed up bout my results..And also,with the tension of living with a psycotic "clean" toad in my house..We're juz breakin apart i guess..

Well im not allowed to train for one week..I seriously dun get da point..And i cant drink cold stuff..It kinda sucks sometimes..But I dun wanna them worrying bout me though so i guess i'll juz take care of myself..:D Hope it'll get better..Yupps..Haha..I feel sooooo sleepy..But still gotta study for history..Dun intend to study for math..Wats there to study anw?U juz get da formula and practice it till u're used to doin tat kidna sum..So yupp it shld b okie.....maybe..xP Okie gonna study now so can rest later and mayb talk to darl if his not too busy..Yepps..Laterr..

2006-07-21T05:38:00.000-07:00
Groooaannn..My stomach's hurting..Gastric pains..Cant do no work no more..Sigh..Gonna lie down now..But i have soo much work to do :( Sheesh..Well gtg..Laterr..

2006-07-20T08:23:00.000-07:00
=D haha~ finally blogged weeee~~~~!!!

dunno y.... feel happy for no reason=D lalala~~ haha

heehee... u noe i realli dunno wat to blog nw =/

k k i better stop b4 i start crappin XD

2006-07-19T05:07:00.000-07:00
Argh..My post ytd didnt get saved properly..Was kinda pissed at tat screwed up freak who insulted ah jie..Well if its a "she" and is our junior comes into scgs sec next year she'd get it from all of us..Whoopie..Haha..I kinda sound sadistic.

Today wasn't VERY exciting but it was exciting enough with da chinese talentine!Heehee..Well da day started off with math..Wonder why comp studies was cancelled..At least we didnt have to go freeze inside da cooold cooold comp lab..We didnt do much for math..Juz lazed around and watched da High School Musical song "Breaking Free" on youtube..After which we had to do letter writing in higher chinese..=( Mine sucked as usual..Haha..

After recess came art and thennnn..CHINESE TALENTINE!Was sooo nice..Tho i still think 2pr shld have gotten into da finals..Well mummy's class was realli good..And 4gr's was soooo funny!Haha..They used jian dan ai and Sheryl Tham was playing da drums!She's such a cool senior!Nikki was inside Chinese Talentine too..Well they all looked cool..Haha..Mummy sang realli well..They shld have tied all three sec 4 classes..4gr,co and da other class who did shan hu hai..Neways..Embarrassment embarrassment,1gy didnt even get into da finals xP

We had bean paintin after lunch which bored me half to death then me and kt went to kap to gorge..:D Well i gtg bathe..To cut things short,we met up with joel at da hilltop.After dinner,i walked kt to da guardhouse to take a taxi..She's paying da taxi driver in 20 cents coins!Well good luck with yur work joel..Muax..

2006-07-16T00:05:00.000-07:00
Emotionless by Good Charlotte

Hey Dad I'm writing to you
Not to tell you, that I still hate you
Just to ask you how you feel
And how we fell apart how this fell apart
Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your sons?
Do you miss your little girl?
When you lay your head down how do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we're all right?
We're alright
We're alright
It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not OK but we're alright
I will remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mineI
spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive
The days I spent so cold, so hungry, were full of hate
I was so angry, the scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There's things I'll take to my grave, but I'm OK, I'm OK
It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not OK but we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive
I'm still alive
Sometimes I forgive, yeah and this time I'll admit
That I miss you, said I miss you
It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not OK but we're alright
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive
And sometimes I forgive, yeah and this time I'll admit
That I miss you, I miss you...hey Dad

Kinda thought this was a realli touching song so yupp im posting it..

2006-07-14T06:15:00.000-07:00
Yayie..Got da autocare contacts thing today..But feels sooo uncomfortable..Oh well guess i'll get used to it..Well today's trainin was realli nice..Juz felt soooo happy when trainin..Tho it was darn hot and i had ulcers and only 7 sec 1s came..But it was cool..Towards da end,we had a small match we some sec twos..It wasnt ralli fiair anyway and we only meant it for a laugh cause da sec 2s had only 3 pple while we had 5..It was such a laugh..Annabell kept goin in for da layups and being so active and everything..Da rest of da sec 1s except for kt were juz walkin around..Especially me..Haha..

Well i gtg..Stoopid toad..Well byee..
Cheryl..hmm when's joel's gonna post..hint hint -grins

2006-07-13T05:14:00.000-07:00
opps forgot to say..Tat was me down there..<---Cheryl.. aka da lil puppy?Haha

2006-07-13T04:06:00.000-07:00
Ahaha..Created this blog a few days back?Haha..Oh well asked Chels for some help n stuff n yupp she gave me some advice..But i did this thing myself!Heehee..First accomplishment..Haha oh well..Juz got back from watchin a bball match..Cheryl Wong didnt play today..Sad coz i realli like her playin..So cool..Haha..Well da seniors beat Yuying Sec so yay for us..=)

Im all sweaty and dirty now..Went to waffletown today before da match for lunch and saw joshua at da 7-11 there..Some of da bball gals commented on him..Haha..Well ate chicken n mashed potato but still wasnt full so we went to da 7-11 to buy snacks for da match but ended up eating all on the way there..I bought cup noodles and tried to cook it with Lisa's lunch box but it was all oily so i used Kt's file instead..But when it wasnt realli a min yet,the bus came n we were soooo freaked out..Coz we didnt think da bus driver wld have let us on the bus..So we hid it n we got all messed up goin up da bus coz i forgot to pay and i had da cup noodles in my hand so i tried passin it to da others but they didnt exactly get my jist..It was soo funny..Da bus driver muz have thought i was realli realli weird,goin up to pay one stop after..Mayb he thought i was tryin o cheat him then my guilty consience spoke to me or smth..Haha..I aint tat stoopid..

Can't wait for tmr's trainin..Realli muz work out..All of our stamina's dropped since da hols..Realli dun want our first few months of trainin to go to waste..-smile Regina's naggin again bout takin a bath..Gtg then..Till next time..